As Requested.......

As most of you know, I will be joining the Army National Guard. I find People constantly telling me that i'm a "Patriot" and so on. The more i hear this Verbalise i find myself doubting my "patriotism". Now i love my Country, probably more than most. But i find myself being excited not for the idea of serving my country, but for the personal experiences i will receive. My question is, does being selfish and wanting experiences, make me any less Patriotic? Idk all i know is that i am super amped to finally "be all i can be"!

So i am fairly confident that i was brain washed. Now i know what you are saying, Brainwash? really? yes. Brain washed to never trust or

even like another girl. in one of my very old post titled Girl who shall Remain Nameless i talked about a girl who effed with me

. now i really didn't go into to much detail but lets just say, i believe she brainwashed me.....far fetched?" maybe really it's the

only answer i have. it explains why i haven't been in a committed relationship in over 4 years. I struggle to even like a girl.

i mean even if the girl is gorgeous, outgoing, smart. and i know i should be all over this girl, something inside makes me say naw, not really

interested, even though the girl on paper i just what i am looking for. honestly if i havent had met this girl i believe my life would have

been a lot different. Now i know what you are saying, "Paul you shouldn't blame your problems on anyone but yourself" yes i know

that. And i do believe that all the mistakes i have made in my life are from my own choices, although i can't help to think that

your choices are influenced by others, and their actions toward you effect you, and make you do things that you never thought

you would ever do.I ramble aimlessly........ I saw this girl the other night. she still is the most beautiful girl i have ever seen,

i struggle every time i see her, It's not so much that "i'm not over her", i am over her.....when she isn't around. When she steps into the

room nothing else matters. hence why i think i was "brainwashed" or whatever, brainwashed may be a little strong worded, but

it's all the same. Don't you people tell me that i need to go see a therapist. i know i need to see one, believe me. Why does this

happen? why do some people have complete control over another person? It vexes me to no end, maybe one day

i will understand....... but until then i keep my head up and hope for the best!

Obama's a terrorist!

Two F-16 fighter jets, escorting an Air Force One aircraft, fly low over western New York's skyscrapers, sparking fears only felt on September 11, 2001. The low-altitude fly above southern Manhattan over the New York Harbor on Monday created citywide alarm and prompted office evacuations, Reuters reported. The US Air Force, though, later confirmed that the half-an-hour flight formation had been just posing for the cameras. Air Force One is the air traffic control call sign of any United States Air Force aircraft that carries the president of the United States. "The Defense Department is conducting a photo op that involves deploying two F-16s and escorting a military version of the Boeing 747" close to lower Manhattan and the Statue of Liberty, AFP quoted spokesman for the Federal Aviation Administration spokesman, Jim Peters, as saying. "The maneuver was not an emergency and was coordinated in advance with the FAA and state and local officials," he added. A number of New York's State authorities, however, expressed fury over the incident which made the White House to issue an apology. Four commercial planes were hijacked on September 11, 2001. Two of the airliners crashed into the Twin Towers of the World Trade Center in New York City, one hit the Pentagon and the fourth plane crashed into a field near Shanksville in rural Somerset County, Pennsylvania. The incident claimed the lives of almost 3,000 people........ For real??? I still am baffled by this! Whos idea was this? and why wasn't the public notified in advance??? Hundreds of civilians fled from bulidings and cars, business were shut down, it was wide spread panic, It just seems to me that no one in the obama adminisration has a clue what they are doing, 9/11 was one of Americas biggest tragedies, and people had to relive that scene just becasue the white house wanted a photo op??? i am literally speechless! that is all, i can type no more!

Honestly?????

So today was a not so good day, it started off with getting a letter from a collections agency, Apperantly i owe the Branbury 970 dollars for absolutley nothing! I never even lived there! And better yet they are charging me for utilities! Utilities? Really? For what? The water i never used? What the crap! And then i have my dad calling me evey 4 seconds telling me that my credit score is down the crsapper becasue of this! And i tell him there is nothing i can do! i didn't know i owed them money. They didn't even send me any notice for rent! I love it! Money is really the root of all evil, make people do crazy things. Three quarters of marriages end because of money. I don't understand that, people are stupid! My good friend works at a Wells Fargo branch and she told me she never wants to get married becasue of one thing, MONEY. She then went on to tell me the huge numbers of people who are hiding money from their spouses. What a sad world it is right now, when you don't want to get married because of a piece of paper or a number in parenthesis! I honestly think it would be a happier world if we would go back to the bartering system! Just think about it, no one would be in debt, you would trade a good or service for another, Almost forcing people to be productive members of society and the economy. Now adays you have people riding the money train on Federal Government programs, welfare, unemployment and countless other rediculous liberal programs. Why would you want to go get a job if you are getting paid 400 dollars a week to sit on your butt and do absolutley nothing? It's called dignity people! The federal gov't was set up to rally the states and protect our boarders that is all! Not to give people weekly paychecks! Paychecks you and i pay for through unconstitutional federal taxes! Does anyone know why we didn't keep the articles of confederation? It's because the federal gov't had absolutley no power! it was basically federal anarchy, all the power was left to the states to govern themselves! Then the founding fathers drafted the constituion stating what rights and power the federal gov't had, then the bill of rights were added to protect us from them. Now in these days libertarians are called nut jobs, even though we/they have the closest views to what the framers of our country believed! It just sickens me when liberals need change! We don't need change, all we need to do is go back to basics, go back to when americans were actually proud to be americans, go back to when patriotism was almost expected not mocked, go back to when failure only meant you had another chance to succeed, go back and believe our founding fathers were inspired by god to build a nation to have a free economy and freedom of religion, just go back to the begining!

Ursus maritimus

In laymans terms Polar Bear. These beautiful creatures are dying at huge rate! Or so says actors on commercials for an organization called WWF. On May 14th 2008 Congress decieded to put the polar bear on the endangered spieces list. There reasoning is global warming. For real? The global average tempature is 1.5 degrees colder than the last 50 years! Of course they took readings in summer when the sea ice was receiding. of course the ice was recieding, it's summer! freaking idiots! Sea ice goes through a process every year! melting then freezing! Everyone knows ice melts when its warm and freezes when its cold. In the latest no-biast tests, the sea ice is thicker then it has been in 50 years! Do you really think it is a fluke that our planet is 1.5 degrees cooler and the sea ice is thinker in the past 50 years? I say no! The reason i bring this up is becasue artic polar bears live, breed and hunt on this sea ice. Polar Bear numbers hover around 25,000 year to date. 5 years ago there numbers we aproximately around 5,000.... so my question is why the hell are we putting the pb's (Polar Bear for short) on the endangered list? It seems to me that the are thriving! how can we put an animal on the list when they have grown 5 times in numbers in the past 5 years?? The average temp in provo utah is 26.3, my thinking is that if the sea ice in the artic is really mealting, then why not bring the bears to good ol' utah? haha we have everything the need! they can live in the utah lake! haha freaking liberals! all they want is socialism, they will scare us into it..... just wait, you will see

Quick to act

So in my last blog i was saying that i would most likely vote Obama if Ron Paul did not win the republican nomination, All i can say is I'm sorry, i made that ill informed post regarding the presidential race, I was entirely wrong! Obama has to be the worst candidate the united states of America has ever seen! If you think taxes are high now, just you wait! Obama will create even more programs to help the "less fortunate" (aka lazy) with the help from the liberal controlled congress, who will let the bush tax cut lapse, driving taxes even higher up! so for the next 4 years all i can say is graab your ankles and prepare to take it!

Neo-Depression

Super tuesday has come and gone, and the "front Runners" from each party have been "Chosen", all i can say is we are screwed! I just sit and question myself, "how did our nation get so off track?" First of all this whole 2 party democracy is just stupid! if you don't fall into 2 categories you have no say whatsoever! there's republicans on the right and democrats on the left and that's it in our governments mind, what about up? or even down? do they take libertarians,stastist or any other party in consideration? nope! they just lump everything into 2 categorys, it's just like in Donnie darko, when the teacher wants donnie to place the action he read aloud in class on the lfie line, where it was broken up in only 2 categorys love on the positive and fear on the negative, completly leaving out any other emotion! life isn't black and white it's many many shades of grey! just like politics! All polls say that it's either going to be mccain or obama, which literally scares me to death! especially McCain, his comment about being able to keep the war going in iraq for a hundred year???????? first of all why would we want to and secondly we can't afford it! Our economy is in free fall and this "front Runner" of the "Republican Party" (i use quotations because the party has changed so drasticly that it should be called a different name) would rather spend TRILLIONS of dollars on a NEO-VIETNAM! What are we acheiving over there? absolutley NOTHING! So if McCain wins the presidental election i'm moving to the netherlands! Obama is really the less of the evils in my opinion, yes he is liberal and i don't share a lot of his views but he seems more compitent then good ol' george W! well honestly any one is! Don't even get me started about hillary, that socialist whore! ha national health care? what is she thinking? if you want half to three quarters of your pay check to go to taxes go ahead and vote for her! not to mention the whole program will suck! you will have to wait weeks just to have a regular doctors vist! and not to mention the quality of doctors will go down because there won't be a private sector like there is now! so i urge you to get out there and vote for the man who will change things so we wont end up in a neo-depression! RON PAUL! we can still get him elected if we all pull together!

She that shall remain nameless

Sometimes when i write these blogs i feel that all i'm doing is complaining.....haha whatev not like anyones reading them hehe...... Well last night i recieved a text message from a girl whom will remain nameless becasue im going to be saying pretty bad things about her ha but im sure if you know me well enough or even remotely you wil make the connectiojn of who i am talking about.....anyway the text......so ya i recieved this text from this girl i dated around a year ago...... She was and is the only girl i've ever loved...... i actually managed to get her outta my head for the past several months when this infamous text message appeared.....at this moment our whole relationship came flooding back into my memory.......sucks bad! And to be honest i really don't know why i love this girl..... She's self centered, obnoxious and has no respected for the male gender.......but on the other hand she is gorgeous(in my eyes and others as well) and she just has this spell she cast over me when ever she is around..... Even after she hooked up with a guy she was just "friends" with throughout our whole relationship i still couldnt get over her.....even after she just recently hooked up with one of my best friends.....still there..........even after she flirts hardcore with my older brother.....still........seriously what is wrong with me ? do other people have this same "condition"? i guess so, casue you always hear about those battered women who don't leave there significant other ( or in this case insignificant other hehe) casue they are "in love" hmmm that's something to think about...... Oh dont you love it when your ex tells you they love you after you break up? oh wait that only happens to me! haha ya thats right she would still tell me she loved me everytime we saw eachother....after questioning her about it she pulled this little line on me...."I love you, i'm just not in love with you" seriously what the fuck does that mean? excuse my language, it just really pisses me off so bad! i can see if jakki my best friend for years tells me that because there hasnt been any "real" emotion (save sexual) between us) but you cannot, cannot pull that off once you have loved someone, and dated them for over a year! it just doesnt work! wow i sound so lame and "emo" right now dont i? hehe eh wahteve! outta here in 4 days! going back to the land of milk and honey! oh and i love/hate the girl that shall remain nameless hahaha